I’m all of 26 years, an engineer on the verge of completing my MBA degree, already placed in a respectable company with an equally good pay package and so, the future looks bright. Why then, every night as I lay my head on the pillow to rest does my entire life flash before me? This, they say, is the calling of the death.
I find no moment in life where I’ve put my being to some use. If I had to justify my living, I wouldn’t be able to. Well, running small chores for mom dear or calming friends’ running eyes or looking into a boy’s eyes and professing not to run away with any other isn’t exactly what I’m hinting at. If I were to die today, a lil mourning and a small vacuum in some hearts is all that I hope for after I’ve departed. Doesn’t there have to be something more that I have to do with my life? Isn’t there a special purpose to fulfill with which the Almighty sent me on earth? Don’t I have to prove my ‘uniqueness’ ? Or is this only the moral science lesson taught in school?
This unkind, tingling and ever bothering restlessness keeps niggling at my mind. Has been doing so since I know Ms Dagny Taggart. Not that I wish to be her incarnated form, but if you’ve known her you’ll agree that she’s a heroine of sorts.
There is no comfort knowing that I still have half a lifetime to do my bit for this world. Because, I’ll do nothing more than devote all this time to myself – get myself a new house, a car, a pet, marry, have kids, do exceedingly well at work, earn potful of money, and then to ease my conscience become a member of Unicef, do charity or engage in self gratifying social service weekend.
This isn’t my story alone. It’s yours too if you are 26, have a good job and count amongst the fortunate children of fate. It’s only a matter of time till your conscience starts pricking at you. And when it does, God bless you!
Aye Saala!!! 
I am the same age and at the same point in my life. What you wrote is really all too true. It is continually tearing me apart because I can’t seem to find something to truly devote myself too and get also get some satisfaction out of. Anyways, your post really hit a chord with me and if you ever figure anything please let me know… you’ll be saving me countless restless nights.
how abt starting with some of the skills sets (read attempts to murders) 😛
Sure thing Pete. Thou it’ll have to be from other people’s lives… i know i’m too lazy for anything 🙂
Hmm…I still believe that if God had a plan for me, he would present it to me in shining gold plated words…Till then, i just follow one rule… “The right to swing my arm only ends at the tip of the other guy’s nose!” 😀
This means that you are just thinking a bit too much.
Dont think, Act!
Do whatever you want for the mankind and you may feel better. Else be happy and every nite have a sound sleep!
Your post summed up in 1 line, “The purpose of Life, Is a life of Purpose”
It’s true, and we all know it ,don’t we?
No one will/can hand us OUR PURPOSE.My guess, its just picking up one single
thing and DEVOTING urself to it, w/o bothering about ifs ‘n’ buts, past and future,
SWOT analysis and Strategies….. Phew ! Sounds like a gyan :-O
Well YOU’ve to find ur purpose-the thing(s) you wanna do, & until u can’t, let ur each day
be a purpose in itself i.e.- “give ur best, and let god do the rest”
May u find ur PURPOSE soon. Amen !
Yes I completely agree with u on this one. I think that this is a vicious cycle, once we die we will again come back to this place and keep repeating the same thing all over again. We need to end this vicious cycle somehow and that is our real purpose, as far as the society is concerned if we can show them how they can also get out of this vicious cycle then we have done our job. Though it is only my opinion and I don’t want to force my opinion on others.
Hi nice post. There is no purpose in looking 4 a purpose. Small things make yr day. Feeding a hungry whinning dog, cat or a human being.offering lift to a person in the scorching heat etc. Life gives u ample opportunities for being successful. Life also gives u opportunities to pay back. Its yr way of living. looking at life. I hope u start living life with pupose & not spent sleepless nights..simply thinking
Someones being unique does not need to be proven. IMHO, you write well , and possibly through your ramblings, others also start thinking for life. And, who knows that was the purpose with which you were born on earth.
Its just that every drop is important, just by its size it does not loose its significance.
So, I would say why loose your sleep over it. If you are based in India, as I guess you are, you will daily have some n opportunities to help people. And, ofcourse Rome was not built in a day and so no big change is possible in one day !!